Personal Struggle

As I read the OYB OT reading today, I found myself in a personal struggle. Do I read this account and actually THINK? Or, do I simply read it over without ever giving it fresh thought and consideration?


My personal struggle is this: I cannot get my brain around this stuff! God, Who IS light creating light. God, Who IS truth creating a deceiver (the serpent). A "conscience tree"? A talking serpent (snake?) and humans in dialog with the serpent. I mean, REALLY?

I am so glad my questions do not separate me from God. And I am thankful God is big enough to take my questions. I do not understand myself - why can I not just read this and accept it without all the questions? I do not wish to throw away all I have learned in my life... but what HAVE I actually learned?

Father, You know the difficulties I am experiencing right this moment. I need Your grace to receive Your Word into my heart - not without question - but without doubt. Lord, I believe.