But Balaam responded to Balak’s messengers, “Even if Balak were to give me his palace filled with silver and gold, I would be powerless to do anything against the will of the LORD my God. But stay here one more night, and I will see if the Lord has anything else to say to me.” [Numbers 22.18-19]
It was at this very moment ("But stay here one more night..."), that Balaam sealed his fate. In just one small doubt of second-guessing what God had clearly prohibited, Balaam set in motion a compelling story, the subject of many a Sunday School lesson and sermon, but a story of his willful disobedience and ultimate damnation.
So great was Balaam's sin that Jesus used it in illustration as was recorded by John in his Revelation:
“Write this letter to the angel of the church in Pergamum. This is the message from the one with the sharp two-edged sword: “I know that you live in the city where Satan has his throne, yet you have remained loyal to me. You refused to deny me even when Antipas, my faithful witness, was martyred among you there in Satan’s city. “But I have a few complaints against you. You tolerate some among you whose teaching is like that of Balaam, who showed Balak how to trip up the people of Israel. He taught them to sin by eating food offered to idols and by committing sexual sin. In a similar way, you have some Nicolaitans among you who follow the same teaching. Repent of your sin, or I will come to you suddenly and fight against them with the sword of my mouth. [Revelation 2.12-16]
The Old Testament gives no indication whatsoever that Balaam "taught" anyone anything. We are faced then with the fact that actions speak ("teach") louder than words. Jesus leaves no room for speculation otherwise.
From the moment Balaam second-guessed God in Numbers 22.18-19, he became NOT a spokesman for God, but an object lesson for God against disobedience. Yes, God continued to speak to, and even through Balaam, but only as it served God's purpose of blessing Israel, proving that God can and will accomplish His will even through the disobedience of the disobedient! God even revealed Balaam's donkey-like stubbornness using nothing less than Balaam's own donkey.
While it looked like Balaam may have had a moment of repentance in the talking donkey event, God sent him on to bless Israel. It would seem the slate was cleared at this point and that Balaam had a second chance to serve God as one of His own and not as a talking donkey. However, as the story goes, Balaam consumed meat sacrificed by God's enemy, the king and people of Moab who were steeped in sexual sin, and thereby again condemned himself to destruction, even though, like his own donkey, he would still speak on behalf of God.
The undeniable lesson to be learned from Balaam is NOT that God would speak through an otherwise dumb ass (donkey), but that God would speak through a dumb-a** (human) who had no future in heaven because of his second-guessing disobedience to God.
We should all be so sure of our obedience to God without second-guessing that we know we are speaking for God as a faithful follower. Otherwise, we are just a dumb-a** through whom God will speak, but not save. Don't be a dumb-a**.
Father, You know I struggle with second-guessing. I may be the king of second-guessing. I want You to use me, but not as a disposable tool. May I be found obedient the first time every time, living in and by that obedience and not by situation ethics. I plead the blood of Jesus over my life and the lives of all who read this. May we be obediently beholding Jesus for direction for our lives and redemption for our souls. So be it.